I might have found a new place to live. Which is always exciting. It will be my first place all to myself. Terrifying. But I need to be in a better environment. Since the leasing office and old management basically breached their own lease, no better time than the present. Nervous about the increase in cost the most I think. I have furniture and moving help all nailed down. Lets hope ma dukes pitche$ in. No better way to say happy holidays than a new place right?! I have until Monday to decide.
I think…I feel like today the last bad thing has finally happened and it will go nowhere but up now. I’m so much more clear headed and concentrated. The past month has been like a pushing a truck up a hill with a string to put it mildly. Which part? What in particular? All of it…the whole lot of the last 4-6 weeks. I know grossly large estimate of a month but seriously…it has felt endless. So yeah? Maybe. No, not maybe lets exercise that age old mantra “speak it into existence”. Yes. Yes. Yes. Things are getting back on track. Back to school in January. Reconciliation and finally letting it all hangout.
Pump good vibes and positive thoughts this way because they are being returned to you 10 fold. Here’s to another day in the life….
There are few things more frustrating than circumstances being rough and they have nothing to do with you, but directly effect you due to how they are effecting someone else. It is in essence being asked of you to be two sides of yourself simultaneously. Be understanding and supportive but be upset and confused because you don’t understand why you’re being treated less than desirably. It isn’t you. And fuck it all if that isn’t the precise thing that enrages you. IT ISN’T EVEN YOU. You’re the beautiful thing in the situation and there is perhaps a thought that it’s protecting you…to keep you from the bad times without any recognition of your want and desire to be there regardless. Because regardless, in and of itself, is one of the most mind bending concepts in human relationships. It’s rare. Someone who is capable of “regardless” with another, that is terrifying for everyone involved. Until the moment that they get it, the other person accepts and understands that regardless you’re ready. Maybe that’s when the axis tilts, when I get there I’ll let everyone know. Current feeling is a slow motion fall where you are able to see all the outcomes possible when you finally land… happy vibes and prayers to landing where my heart wants to be.
Wanted to share this unique opportunity from HBO. For any and all diverse aspiring screen/play writers. They start accepting applications March 4, 2015 and they stop taking applications once they reach 1,000. This is a great opportunity to get your work out there and put yourself on the road to possibly be chosen and to be exposed to industry heavy weights! There are a few rules and regulations that should be read over, otherwise good luck!
As promised this article contains some questions that are great to ask the interviewer. Often times they won’t be expecting it and can land you some extra notice. Well written and to the point. I’ve used these tips when appropriate and have had a lot of academic and professional successes.
Every employer has their interview methods. However the increasing number of “rounds” on the pipeline to even the most basic employment is becoming ridiculous. Correct me if I am wrong here, but I thought the submission of a resume and cover letter by potential candidates was in essence the “sorting hat” in itself. Now a second interview is understandable, especially for larger companies or more specialized positions. But to drag out the process due to indecisiveness or an often times “on the fence” employee is in rather poor taste.
But not many things in the process are worse than the “we will be making call backs early next week”, “we will make a decision at the end of the week and will let everyone know one way or the other”…needless to say these spell frustration. Eventually you find out how you did..usually because you don’t receive a call. Did they not like you? Why? Should you call? No you don’t want to seem clingy and nuts…wait what?! Interviewing and job searching shouldn’t incite copious amounts of wine drinking, cursing, and self re-evaluation! These treats are reserved for dating…and being in the midst of gainful employment and not a minute before.
However! There are ways to eliminate some of this nonsense. I’ve found that these questions are acceptable and many times welcomed when in an interview situation, in no particular order:
1) What are the next steps in the hiring process? (given that they have extended you a second interview)
2) Has this been a heavily sought after position?
3) What should I expect for the next interview?
4) Who will I be interviewing with? (take this information and try to learn about these people, usually upper management/CEO/Owners)
Give it a shot. They are humans just like we are. It is well within your rights to know what you are up against and to voice your concerns and sate curiosities (politely of course). I’ll be posting some questions to ask your interviewer that I have had great success with! Until then cadets….
No interest in reading and learning, but have huge opinions with no real reasoning.
Hate kids and have no interest in rearing any, but have infinite wisdom and conversation on how they should be raised and what parents should and should not do.
Atheist. But identify as (technically) “insert religion” because then that gives leverage to insult and be close minded towards others beliefs that you accuse of being intolerant and ignorant.
Angry about others people’s life choices and stay in other people’s business via social networking but have no plans and are not working towards positive things for oneself.
Maintain the notion that if certain trends or cultural occurrences did not/do not happen in personal region of origin or was not witnessed first hand it did not happen.
An injustice, malfunction, or inconsideration happened to others but has yet to befall one first hand so it is considered as nothing. Yet the minute it knocks on the unaffected’s door it is to be the worry of the masses….
It’s a beautiful Saturday afternoon, windy and cool. Not a cloud in the sky.
You hurt. In your chest. In the deepest recesses of your being, there is that pain. The all too familiar, all consuming hurt. A cocktail of anxiety, disappointment, sadness, helpless restlessness…. mixed and poured inexplicably across your spirit. Walking on solid ground all the while drowning inside…. just when you resign to wash in the blood of the impending turmoil, you see eyes. Those eyes that want nothing more than to anchor you and bring you back. Regardless of the cost or how Many times they must, Those eyes cast the line. fighting the body breaking, mind bending surf for you. A fight to beyond death. An ethereal battle to recapture the part of you that is breaking. Not because they too bare the intrinsic scars from this ancient harbinger of discontent… for the light that comes back to your eyes when you come back. The light of your soul and the warmth you return to them with. Nothing more sinister and sweet than the fear they have of You leaving them behind
This humble container of fuchsia hair dye, although small, is my small success. $5 and a trip to Sally Beauty Supply has provided me a new sense of freedom. Things have not been exactly smooth since graduation (May 2014), especially in the last month. But adding a random, pretty color to my hair has made things seem a little more manageable. Simple and superficial as it could sound, I don’t care. That is the best part of finally letting yourself off the hook and shirking the responsibility and accountability you have had to carry with you for years, you learn that you ARE NOT REQUIRED TO CARE.
Then came the pair of polka dot pants that I absolutely adore. A month ago I never would have put them on…because my fear of the impending criticism was crippling…
I’ve crippled myself. I take full responsibility, although there are facets that I couldn’t control. I let someone (my mother) dig her claws so deep into me that in the last month of my 24th year of life, I’m just starting to get a hold of who I am and what I can be. Self deprecating and self shaming is no way to live. Being a sunshine loving, dance in inappropriate places, funny, book loving hippy baby, that loves all things glitter is totally ok! People love me the way I have been (we shall call that period the dark years) and I am starting to see that they are showing even more support and a greater love towards as I make my baby steps out into myself. So TAKE THAT world and all the expectations and unrealistic goals that I DO NOT CARE to meet or attain. I’ll be happily sashaying about in my polka dot trousers and flipping my deep and subtly purple hair!